Swimming!

Three days in a row of posting, wow, there's regularity for you!

Fought through all cravings today and came out victorious, not so much as a incy bit other than prescribed passed my lips :-). A great feeling that is and I am going to remember how I feel in refusing/ignoring the food next time I feel tempted.

Hubbie is working 2pm - 9pm which is not good news... he is normally my rock in the evenings. I am hopeful that I will not be tempted and will keep on the path to slimness.

We went swimming today... and I loved it so much!! I normally make up excuses not to go and haven't been for about two years because of my size. For some reason it was my suggestion to go today, I just felt like it. I also knew that all the schools were in and it would be quiet at our local pool! But it was brilliant. Yes, I was uber selfconscious getting in and out of the pool, but I did it.

Mum decided to come and visit us 'in passing' tonight... very nice surprise, lol! But the thing is, I had this whole thought that if she says anything about my weight then i would say something along the lines of "oh that's nice of you to comment, but i thought you said i was putting on tons of weight" but she said nothing, nada. Now, since last i saw her i have lost just over one stone... even my nice neighbour noticed that... so maybe she only notices gain and not losses. In any event, i don't pay it much heed. If she does say anything then i'll just say something to her but i can't really be bothered in actual fact. That sounds bad i know but there has been so much hurt and emotions in our relationship that i can't quite bring myself to be the one that makes everything ok anymore. I'm not going to sacrifice myself just to make herself feel better.

I am feeling more energy and more into doing stuff which is nice. I'm actually looking forward to going back to work tomorrow to get back into proper routine and in the hope that the weeks start skipping by!!