I haven't blogged for the longest time. I have come so far though lol, that sounds so shitty!!

But what i've been trying to make myself do over the last few years seems to be slowly coming to the surface and making some sense to me.

Days 1 - 5 : tick

So no more wallowing and self pity. Hard facts are I am fat.. I need to lose weight. Coping or not coping with the emotional side of it is becoming quite torturous so stuff that and on with the plan of losing the weight.

Back on my Lighter Life plan, it's the end of day five and I am feeling so much better. Mentally too. It is amazing how much food intake affects your mood, well mine anyway.

I cannot get my head around how my state of mind can fluctuate so much, it is very frightening. After a long, long period of self loathing and looking inwards and looking for all sorts of reasons for the blockage of my putting into action my desire to lose weight, I am on plan.

I have not weighed myself, nor do I have the desire. I will know when I have reached my goal and I would rather go by the look of my body/clothes than rely on a weighing scale.

They say the first fat to go is the fat around your organs. I can actually feel that. I also feel less puffy and lethargic.

5 days in, going well.